Two Years On (Part One)

Two years ago today I went to training and put on my skates. Little did I know it would be the last time.

If you have read my previous blog posts you’ll already know what happened on the day so I won’t go into that all over again. What I want to talk about is appreciating what you have. It’s a concept we are all familiar with but in terms of skating; do we always give it 100%? Everyone will have off days, I’m not trying to imply that everyone can or should do everything perfectly at every training session and every game, that’s just not how the world works. What I’m talking about is the want and the need to be on skates. We don’t always feel like going to training. That night out or Sunday morning lie-in seems a much nicer option. And then when you get to training, sometimes the energy just isn't there and it feels like you’re going through the motions a bit. Being at training is about far more than just turning up. It’s about dedicating that time to nothing but training, working hard, sweating buckets and trying to make improvements every session.

Imagine if, one day, someone told you that your skating career was over. That your goals would never be met, you would never lace up your skates again. This is not a naggy post and I’m not trying to bring anyone down but seriously, appreciate your skates. You never know what might be around the corner.

The Awkward Middle Stage...

Anyone that’s lost a big amount of weight will understand what I’m talking about here!

I was going through my wardrobe today trying to find something for casual lunch with some friends and discovered that nothing really fits me. Now this would be fine except I’ve been at this point for about a month now. Jeans are all too big and fall down or too small and won’t do up – it really is that big of a difference. So here I am at a size 21, apparently, and desperately trying to find the motivation to carry on with my weight loss. It’s no secret that I’ve stalled recently. This is partly due to my body having enough and partly down to my new found party lifestyle which in no small part is due to my boosted confidence of late. 

Now, of course I want to be able to feel fabulous in my wedding dress and I would love to be able to think about the things that “normal” sized people think about when they are buying clothes “does it look good? How can I style it” etc etc. Instead, I have to think about how big my hips are and if it’s going to cling to my belly. But at this stage, it almost seems a better option to give up and gain a small amount of weight back so that my jeans will fit me again!

That said, I find it really easy to forget how far I’ve come already. I’ve lost four stone over the past 18 months or so. Yes, it’s a lot slower than I had hoped for but I’m still in a much better situation than I was. My BMI has come down by 10 whole points and I now only have the one chin. But ultimately, I’m not where I want to be yet. I still want to lose 3-4 dress sizes and, even though BMI charts are wildly inaccurate, I would love to get into the “healthy weight” category. I just want to be happy in my own skin, I don’t ever remember feeling like that about myself.

So, here are my new targets;

Celebrate what you have already achieved

Keep the goal in mind – ALL THE TIME!!

Celebrate the small victories. Even the tiny ones.

Let's see how long I can stick to these shall we....